My REAL Christmas WishList =)

REAL as in attainable, can be given to me when Christmas comes and Santa realizes I've been really good the whole year! :)

1. I was walking around the mall one day and "accidentally" got inside Top Shop. It was one of the most beautiful accidents that has happened in a long time :) Because I found these... (ULTIMATE SKINNY JEANS)

...and now I can't stop dreaming of them! *drools*

2. This dress is really lovely! I've seen it a few weeks ago and have been eyeing it, but thing is I was too broke (and actually, I'm still broke) to buy this :( Hopefully, the lovely Red Butterfly will be able to do some restocks on this one! It will definitely be a very, very nice Christmas gift!

I definitely love the conservative cut and the undeniably sexy back. Now whoever said conservative and sexy can't be in one sentence is totally wrong. :p See more of her products HERE.

3. An LV basic shoulder bag/handbag. I really love this kind! I can smell some formality in it and I can pair it with anything...


3. And here's another dress which I fell in love at first sight for! This can definitely emphasize my curves (hahahah!) and TRUTH: this will make me LOOK thinner! I'm just sooo in love with this gorgeous-of-a-dress!

Buy this for me HERE. :) And this dress also look a bit similar to my dear sister Katy Perry's dress in this photo:

Well... except that it's not really a tube one. But I meant the lower part... Ho-hum.

4. A plain T-shirt in any color from Top Shop! They are just unbelievably gorgeous, too! :) Sadly, I couldn't find a picture of it anywhere... But you can surely visit the Top Shop store and look for it! Hehe! Btw, I am size 8 for US.

5. An original DVD of the movie 500 Days of Summer -- definitely my favorite movie of the year although most might find it as gobbledygook-ish. I love it! A disc of the soundtrack will also do! :)


6. A gift cheque for a FACIAL plus a mani and pedi! Hahah! :D Hellooo! It's Christmas! GIVE! :p And you can add a GC to have my hair done, too! Am I asking too much now? No?

7. A BOOK! Preferably: PERFUME, The Story of a Murderer or The Time Traveler's Wife.

8. D&G Light Blue or Kenzo Flower =) --->> I JUST LOVE THESE SCENTS! Don't you? :)

9. A violet/purple Pilot G-tech pen! I've been dying to have one ever since! I wonder if there's even a violet/purple one... Hmmm...

10. A notebook. Have you seen those beautiful ones in PowerBooks? Yes. I want those please! :)

11. Some really nice and sexy peep toe ankle boots! :)



12. And then WORLD PEACE!


please, please, please God,

-tSin

The Movies That I NEED To Download

once our internet connection is up and running! =)

1. Perfume: The Story of a Murderer
2. August Rush
3. The Time Traveler's Wife
4. Surrogates
5. Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist (I just wanna watch it again!)
6. Yes! Man
7. Bourne trilogy (Well... I wanna watch them all again, too! This is like my favoritest movie after all!)
8. The Stepfather (This is going to be our little secret... Penn Badgley is in this movie!)
9. Inglourious Basterds

and any other movies you might want to suggest for me to watch? please do tell! thanks! :)

The Movies That I Really, Really, Want to Watch RIGHT NOW!

1 Inglorious Basterds. I'm not a very big fan of Brad Pitt but he does look cute and hot and proper for his role in this movie and I am most looking forward to watching it really, really, really! So cinemas, pretty please show them already! TRAILER.

2 500 Days of Summer. I've started watching about 45 minutes of it, but haven't finished yet cuz I didn't have enough patience to wait for the stream to load. TRAILER. DONE! =)

3 Shutter Island. I've read some reviews on it and saw the trailer... I need not say more - it's really worth watching I swear! Ugh! It's not going out until 2010! TRAILER.

4 Twilight Saga: New Moon. The Twilight movie wasn't very impressive, but when I saw the trailer of New Moon I was like "OMG! I should watch this!". It's going to come out to the theaters on November... a month more to go! TRAILER.

5 District 9. The Boyfriend has the DVD. I just don't have the time yet to watch. But I surely will cuz The Boyfriend said it's my kind of movie... we'll see. :) TRAILER. DONE! =)


-tSin

What Irks You tSin?

To counter the things that make me happy I am writing down as well the things that irk me or make me lose my patience and prolly my hair. Hahah!

1. Dirty most especially stinky toilets. I think I would be very prone to kidney stone or some other gall bladder infections or sickness cuz I would rather stop myself from peeing than use a very dirty and stinky toilet.

2. The feeling of badly wanting to pee. I really couldn't function at all whenever I do want to pee very badly... it eats up all my brain.

3. Not getting what I want or not having things my way.

4. Not being able to remember something that's on the tip of my tongue. I can never sleep at all.

5. I get really irritated whenever I'm very sleepy. I have this habit of rubbing my feet together and scratching my head real hard.

6. SNAKES. Eeek! Even the thought of them makes me shiver.

7. Reckless drivers - those who do not know how to use their signal lights and are very fond of overtaking doing the hard right/left technique. Ugh.

8. VERY, as in überly, slow drivers. Driving as though they are driving by the country side or for a funeral parade.

9. A rainy day when I've got loads of things to do and accomplish.

10. Being broke.

11. FEELERS.

12. The Outpost serving ONLY Colt 45 for beer.

13. People who try to tell and convince the world that they are like this and that when in fact they really aren't or vice versa(?).

14. Taking my stuff without permission.

15. Bad breath.

16. Not being able to call at 12MN on Christmas or New Year's eve.

17. Traitors.

18. Plastic. If you don't like me you don't have to be really nice to me when we're together, I will understand. I will do the same.

19. VERY strong-scented perfume. The makalanag kind.

20. Heavy traffic on the way home from a very stressful day at work on a very hot and humid day.

21. Marianne Rivera (and I don't care if I didn't spell her name correctly). Ok. She might be pretty and all but I don't like her.

22. Getting a low score on some project that I've really worked hard on - sweat and blood and all and just a D?! F8ck.

23. Cheaters as in cheaters in a game or sport.

24. Cheaters as in the unfaithful significant others.

25. Boys hitting on some other women while they are with their girlfriends.

26. Puking.

27. The taste of bile on my tongue.

28. Abusive partners.

29. Starbucks attendants spelling/writing my name incorrectly on my cup of frap. Hmp.

30. People who makes up problems just to feel sad and lonely and angry. For these kinds of people I've got three letters for you: E.M.O.

31. Stereotypes.

32. People who act as though they know everything!

33. Coño language. Can you just please speak in straight English or Tagalog or French or Cebuano?!

34. The Pretenders. We all know them and yes, we've got to avoid them.

35. Very slow internet connection or slow computer :(

36. When my body is too tired and my mind just won't stop working.

37. Migraine.

38. Not getting a reply after sending a text message.

39. Insensitive people just makes me want to kill!

40. Did I already mention... Traitors?! Well, I just effin hate them very much!

And then... I will be updating this every now and then so just keep... posted? :D

-tSin

Be Wild At Heart!

HERE'S HOW:

1. know who you are by forgiving who you're not.

2. accept and move on but never give up.

3. treasure your dreams.

4. never be dissatisfied with what you have.

5. heed warnings from those you respect.

6. avoid materialism.

7. get out, clear your heart, let go.

8. know the difference between anger and wild.

9. figure out who you are apart from everyone.

10. contribute to others well-being.

be happy and live life! we only have one to live and love! :)

How To Fight Loneliness.

I just found out today that our company will not be having a Christmas Party at all and it sounds so final it gave me goosebumps. But I am upset. Not that I am very, very excited about the company Christmas Party, I didn't even think about it until they (my office mates) told me (whoever brought up that topic?!)... it's just that if we'd have a Christmas Party it would give me all the reason in the world to dress up, get drunk - oops! no alcohol is ever allowed during company parties according to the Employee Handbook, so scratch that - see most if not all of the employees from other departments and check out the hotties (heheh...), skip work cuz of the party or get an overtime approval cuz of the party. *sighs* Oh well, oh well, oh well... what a stressful day and I couldn't wait to get home! Just when I was almost very determined to pursue with my overtime callings I got all the more lazy instantly, no wonder why my stomach is bloating so perfectly. Hmp.

I think I've stressed myself too much today. *stretch-stretch* Ok. Let me just write down some more lists to keep me preoccupied and to keep myself from thinking of negative thoughts.

A List of Things That Makes Me Happy (or that gives me Happy Thoughts now and then).

1. Christmas - the lanterns, the busy streets, the seemingly never-ending mall-wide sales, Simbang Gabi, and giving presents to our brothers and sisters in the mountains.

2. Simbang Gabi and singing on the first day no matter how crowded the choir loft gets!

3. Balloons in loud and bright colors tied with white strings.

4. Chupa Chups.

5. Hugs and Kisses as in the real one that mostly take my breath away.

6. The scent of book stores or a new book.

7. The scent of old books minus the termites.

8. A school day that gets cancelled cuz the professor got too lazy to do class!

9. Feel-good music that I could get hook on for a couple of days or weeks!

10. Taking Back Sunday.

11. Looking at old photographs alone.

12. Receiving letters - hahah! cuz I'm too lazy to write or to go to the post office to send one.

13. A night out with my girlfriends.

14. Fast driving and beating up the red lights. Evil not?

15. Days with low calls or no calls at all.

16. Free clothes and shoes.

17. Shopping for presents.

18. Wrapping gifts. I REALLY LOVE WRAPPING GIFTS!

19. Watching cartoons.

20. Drinking fresh buko juice straight from the buko shell at the beach.

21. The beach.

22. A black-two piece/swimwear.

23. Marcus Timothy a.k.a The Boyfriend.

24. Seeing photos of beautiful hotels.

25. The thought of Amsterdam.

26. Learning something new.

27. Cattleya notebooks.

28. Blowing bubbles. Even looking at kids blowing bubbles could make me smile already!

29. Riding on a hot air balloon.

30. Going to theme parks like Disneyworld or Enchanted Kingdom.

31. Stolen kisses.

32. Surprise birthday bashes.

33. Staying in a new place and finding out that the bathroom and comfort room are heavenly tidied!

34. Fast black cars. or it could be cars in general. I just looovvvee cars.

35. Bumblebee. Yes, as in that character in Transformers.

36. Sleepovers and slumber parties.

37. Making love with the person whom I really love and who is willing to spend forever with me and me alone or with our kids.

38. Finding a new place to hang out - be it the beach or a bar somewhere in the city.

39. Starbucks. I just remembered that I had this aim to take pictures of myself with a glass of Starbs in every Starb branch that I go to. And oh! I particularly love their chocolate donut!

40. Hearing a beautiful song the moment I wake up.

41. Getting compliments. Whoever got sad when they were told that they are beautiful?

42. Cuddling.

43. Seeing very cute babies or talented toddlers (you would think twice they're four cuz they can dance like a pro!).

44. Taking a beautiful photo without noticing it until I've finally uploaded it in the computer or have it developed.

45. Singing.

46. Reading my journals from the past and feeling light knowing how much I've changed in the past years.

47. Listening to random music.

48. Making new friends and knowing that you share the same interests.

49. Cornedbeef.

50. Christmas trees and lanterns.

51. A lazy day at home during holidays watching reruns of soaps and some movies.

52. Penn Badgley. He's probably the only guy that would make me leave The Boyfriend. hehe...

53. The feeling of relief and lightness after crying over a sappy movie.

54. Finding a perfect fit little black dress.

55. BOOTS!

56. Katy Perry. Don't ask me how I got sooo hooked with this lady.

57. Candid photographs.

58. Making lists of anything at all.

59. Going on a vacation.

60. The sound of bubblewraps!

61. Riding on a swing or a see-saw.

62. Monkey bars.

63. Going on an adventure trip. As in driving out without really knowing where I'm actually heading.

64. Laughing very hard, the kind of laugh that makes you cry and gives you stomach cramps.

65. Swimming.

66. Eating mangosteens and green mangoes.

67. Going home early in the morning safe and sound and without a deadly hangover.

68. Walks on the beach during sunset, hand in hand.

69. Waking up and seeing The Boyfriend, arms wrapped tightly around me.

70. Sinigang and Sweet and Sour Pork.

71. Lychee-Orange shake and some Zagu, too.

72. Thrift shops and finding gorgeous bargains really!

73. Seamless underwear. Those kinds that feel like a second skin ;)

74. Bangles and beads.

75. Feeding fishes and feeling their teeth on my fingertips.

76. Coloring my nails eccentrically.

77. Writing and blogging.

78. First day high blues!

79. Reading funny answers of my grade school classmate on the question "WHAT IS LOVE?" on my autograph. Hahah!

80. Ferrero Rocher... is my favorite brand of chocolate.

81. Sunblocks and tan lines.

82. Bubblegum Pink Lipstick or Red Lipstick.

83. Inspiring, Funny, and Witty bloggers.

84. Making my siblings laugh.

85. Feeling like a foreigner for a day in my own hometown.

86. Watching Dexter and enjoying his character in the series.

87. Winning the lotto! hahaha! I haven't even played yet - ever.

88. Movie marathon or impromptu dates with my girlfriends.

89. A good paying and un-tiresome job. Because I want to be chill like that.

90. Listening to an orchestra... with the distinction of the violin.

91. Getting the window seat everytime I travel... be it the bus, the fast craft, the plane, or just the plain car.

92. Ice cream and I swear I'm such a sucker for this.

93. Friends getting married and having babies.

94. Love stories.

95. Losing weight without dieting.

96. Long intellectual conversations.

97. Comments and views on my blog entries. Although not many people who knows me knows that I do blog somewhere else.

98. KFC and McDonald's.

99. Getting a good night's rest/sleep. It doesn't even have to be the required 8 hours as long as it's a peaceful one, I'd be fine with that!

100. Falling in love all over again, every single day with The Boyfriend.

And there are still a lot of reasons to be happy! Whew! I couldn't believe I was able to list down my Top 100 happy thoughts despite the fact that I was almost close to tears already and almost gave up and went home. I guess... I really wanna be happy.

Finally, I'm heading home.

~tSin

So Sweetly Around Me.

Now I am definitely ready, ready to write the first batch of my wishlist. Yes, this early in September so everyone who are planning to give me something (especially, Santa Claus) will have time to save up and wrap their presents for me and they wouldn't even get tangled up with the Christmas-present-buying rush. See how brilliant I am?

Here goes, chadan! ^__^

1) A new iPod Nano 4th Gen 16G (in pink or red). And I swear I'll be responsible enough this time never to lose it again. Promise!

2) Magenta Pink Ray Ban Wayfarer. Or the yellow green one. =) I would heartily accept! --I GOT ONE ALREADY! Although not a Ray Ban, but it's really nice! :) Actually, The Boyfriend gave me those and I couldn't be anymore happier! =)

3) A laptop. I would want a MacBook Air, but that would be too expensive so any brand would do as long as it's a laptop and it's functional. :D

4) I'm still dying to have a pair of boots. I really do and since my wishlist last Christmas I really don't have a pair yet. I'm such a loser. :( Those white boots that I have been eyeing in Janilyn went somewhere I didn't know, it didn't even wait for me. Sad. But prolly, some better and sexier boots are meant to come my way this year! Haha! I'm truly crossing my fingers on that one.

5) A complete discography of Taking Back Sunday. Because I just love them like super and I want to keep a copy of all their albums so I could show it to my kids in the future. :)

6) A trip to Hong Kong Disneyland. Hong Kong cuz it would prolly take me ages to get a visa if you were to take me to Disney World in Orlando or Disney in Paris. Ugh.

7) My own copy of The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. Because I love the book and Charlie.

8) A bookshelf. And have my books color-coded? Yes! Why not?! I could be kind of OC, too.

9) A new bike. I miss biking sooo much. Biking is like my second love to swimming when it comes to activities that use physicality :D And I'm really digging on that kind/style of bike cuz it looks so laid back and country-sidish. (I know, I'm making up words here!)

10) A premium subscription to Picnik. Even if it's good for just a year. I would gladly accept! :D

11) Pens in different color. Because I love to write sooo much I could have different color of pens for each day of the week!

12) A really cute notebook. Those that you can find in Fully Booked. I really, really fancy them a lot!

13) A dozen nail polishes. I think I would feel sick if ever I see my nails colorless and pale as the pavement. So I would definitely need all those colors to lighten me up! :D

14) Free Katy Perry Concert ticket. I really wanna watch!


Hmmm... what else? I guess that should be all for now. I will update this list once I could think of some other things I would want to get for this Christmas. Hehe... =)


COMPARE MY WISHLISTS FROM THE PAST YEARS.

2005. 2008

I've always been a good girl and I'm thankful to have received the gifts that I have received in the past even though they weren't at all part of my wishlist. Heheh...

always, always, always,

-tSin

I AM EXCITED

FOR THESE REASONS:

1. It's already SeptemBER and I can feel and smell CHRISTMAS! Soon, the streets will be filled with lanterns and I just couldn't wait to stare at them in awe like a little kid.

2. To let Santa Claus (although, I am pretty sure He already knows) know that I have been a good girl all year round and so I deserve some good packages for this Christmas! :)

3. December 16. The start of Simbang Gabi! Yaaayyyy! That's like the thing that I always, always look forward to every year!

4. I couldn't wait to write my wishlist! And of course, I will be posting them here and link all of my other networking sites to the future wishlist entry!

5. To hunt and shop for presents and do some mixtapes for my friends as presents - I am crossing my fingers that they will like it.

6. I couldn't wait for December 31st when I would finally have my hair curled! (I hope, I hope my hair grows 10 more inches by then! It's now about a quarter inch past my shoulders or so I think.)

7. To receive and give presents. =)

Red and Green because they are the colors of CHRISTMAS! Are you excited for Christmas, too? :)

helloooo Christmas,

-tSin

Great Truths About Growing Old

I would just like to share with you this article that I've stumbled upon AmazingPosts.

1. Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional.
2. Forget the health food. I need all the preservatives I can get.
3. When you fall down, you wonder what else you can do while you’re down there.
4. You’re getting old when you get the same sensation from a rocking chair that you once got from a roller coaster.
5. It’s frustrating when you know all the answers but nobody bothers to ask you the questions.
6. Time may be a great healer, but it’s a lousy beautician
7. Wisdom comes with age, but sometimes age comes alone.

A Note To Myself: Some Things That I Want To Do With My Life.

The Boyfriend's amusement these days, second to me (of course, sniggers), is my endless daydreaming of things that I want to do and want to have in life. Oh well, when you're bored and you're a girl who's born under the influence of the fishes you can't help but make daydreaming a necessity. So here goes the list of things that I want to do with my life while I am still alive and yes, these are written in no particular order -- just when they enter my mind I key them in.

1. Pay off bills – especially the CC! Please oh please!

2. Move out – I’ve got to learn how to live without help from family. Help as doing in the laundry and the dishes, basically those kinds of stuff cuz they really do irk me sometimes.

3. Rent or buy a flat.

4. Rent or buy a flat and fill it with bookshelves and more shelves, just because!

5. Learn how to drive.

6. Buy a car.

7. Ride a roller coaster.

8. Shop for clothes and some designer ones!

9. Shop for shoes – heels, flats, and boots!

10. Shop for make-up! Ooh la la!

11. Finish school with a bachelor on psychology and probably continue on with med school! Woosh!

12. Get married at 25? Or 28? Whew!

13. Still believe that 13 or the 13th is not unlucky!

14. Travel: Beaches and GREAT Cities! Like London and Rome and New York and Moscow and Tokyo or maybe Cuba (I swear I love CUBA!)?

15. Learn how to surf!

16. Go to Siargao.

17. Stay employed with my present employer: LEXMARK for the next six years.

18. Be better – show off what I can actually do!

19. Improve leadership skills.

20. Take photographs cuz they last longer really. Take care.

21. SAVE! - Sheesh! I slack on this, I SWEAR! Help me God!

22. Know that there is a God and that I am not a superhero.

23. Read MORE books! :D

24. Create my thesis NOW!

25. Read jokes that make sense and share them. Laugh with friends!

26. Hang out and catch up with friends as often as I can!

27. Paint.

28. Join or start an advocacy – to save the world of course.

29. Have a kid, most probably a Tim Jr before I turn 25.

30. Draw.

31. Write a very moving story or poem or prose or something of that kind.

32. Buy a beat up car and restore it myself or ok, with a little help from Pop.

33. Buy and drive a Ducati or a big bike of that sort.

34. Drive the bike real fast.

35. Lose 10lbs in the next two weeks - htf will I do that?!

36. Design a dress and who knows? I might just venture into my very own line of clothing. :)

37. Convince Tim to go bungee jumping with me.

38. Try skydiving.

39. And then scuba diving.

40. Treat my mum and my sisters and brother to shopping.

41. Make this.

42. Buy an oven and learn to bake, bake, bake.

43. Maintain my blogs.

44. Buy a laptop. I particularly adore the Sony Vaio! Eeeekkk!

45. Go apple-picking on a rainy day.

46. Swim the English Channel. =)

47. Go to the airport with no flight reservation and pick a random city/country to fly to. That would be soooo exciting, right?

48. Be with Tim for the rest of our lives.

49. Visit Amsterdam and the Maldives before they finally sink into extinction.

50. Watch Taking Back Sunday, Kings of Leon, The Used, U2 and Coldplay all in one LIVE concert. =)

51. Be thrown into and enjoy a moshpit.

52. See the Manhattanhenge... sun shining down on New York.

53. I want to still look good in clothes and shoes when I grow old and my hair has turned gray.

54. I'll update this with more things that I want to do when I can think of another. As for now let me leave you with those! :)

-tSin

The 7 Haikus of Tyler Knott That I REALLY LOVE!

1. “If all we can have
is forever then I think
we should start right now.”

2. “I’d give it all up
my life my hope and my fear.
Everything for you.”

3. “You have no idea
the aching inside my heart
when I can’t see you.”

4. “The moment I wake
the only thing I need is
your arms around me.”

5. “You are the substance
the very material
my dreams are made of.”

6. “If I should go first
and you’re left here all alone
please don’t forget me.”

7. “We’ll still be kissing
when everything that we are
turns back into dust.”

Tyler Knott Gregson is like one of the best artists in my time and in my book. I just love everything that he does -- from photographs to his haikus. See more of his works HERE. He's secretly one of the reasons why I Tumblr. :D I wish I could make some beautiful haikus such as his! Or I wish someone would write to me haikus as heart-warming as his, too!

-tSin

10 RULES for a "Happy Marriage"

or Relationship (who knows?)

The 10 things that will keep the fire alight and hopefully not burn you ;)

1. Never both be angry at the same time.
2. Never yell at each other unless the house is on fire.
3. If one of you simply must win the argument, let it be your mate.
4. If you must criticize, do it lovingly.
5. Never bring up the mistakes of the past.
6. Neglect the whole world rather than each other.
7. Never go to sleep angry, or with an argument unsettled.
8. At least once every day say a kind or complimentary word to your life partner.
9. When you have done something wrong, admit it and ask for forgiveness.
10. It takes two to make a quarrel.

~The Ambassadors, Rules For A Happy Marriage

Why I Like To Be HOME ALONE.

I love it whenever I come home and the house is really quiet almost peaceful because everybody is out - well except for grandmother who rarely leaves the house at all. But in any event, I still feel like I have the house all to myself though cuz my grandmother doesn't really care much what I do as long as I'm happy and I don't break the jalousies. Haha!

1) I can have all the pc to myself... my siblings wouldn't be queuing up or watching my back as I www-hop. And believe me, it's not because I watch porn over the internet, I seriously have never done that like ever.

2) I can belt out any songs and record them 100x without disturbing anyone. If you're wondering about grandmother, she's got her own stuff going on downstairs - the drama in the AM radio. Yup.

3) I can stare at the mirror for hours and not worry about getting any exasperating comments from my siblings on me being vain or something.

4) I can do and undo my hair and make-up as many times I want, until they get home probably.

5) Then I can take a gazillion photos of myself!

6) I can skip eating.

7) I can channel surf on the TV (right, we don't even have cable).

8) I can think straight and work on some sensible blogs.

9) I have time for myself, just to think.

And I guess those are the fun things that I am experiencing in the house right now. I've got to sign off though since I still need to get some sleep! Probably, I can dream of having my own flat. =)

-tSin

I've Never Been More Sure - He's The One.

I was him he was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on
He's the one.

~Robbie Williams

July 23, 2009 - My boyfriend and I celebrated our first anniversary and now I couldn't keep this silly smile off my face cuz right now I'm sure you could see the word "HAPPY" all over my forehead. HAPPY is like my name today and tomorrow and for the rest of my life that's going to be spent with him. Days before the anniversary I was planning and was actually determined and sure and certain that I will be giving him a mixtape. I was going to burn a disc for him with all of the songs that we both like and listened to together from the very beginning of our relationship. I was going to make an album art of my own just for him and was pretty excited to make it... Guess what? I wasn't able to make it. Cuz our computer crashed just in time when I was all ready with my materials for my masterpiece! Oh crazy really, like very. So on our anniversary I was giftless. But I do swear I'm gonna make it up to him as soon as our computer gets back from the fixing! For the mean time let me just list here the songs that I will include in the disc with some of the lines that caught both my eyes and heart and all words go out to my one and only Timotee! :)

1) And I long for this mirrorred perspective, when we'll be lovers, lovers at last. ~Death Cab For Cutie, I Will Possess Your Heart

2) All i want is to feel this way to be this close, to feel the same. ~Toad The Wet Sprocket, All I Want

3) Better than I was, more than I am. All of that happened by taking your hand. ~Gil Ofarim, It's Your Love

4) And all i see is your face, all I need is your touch. Wake me up with your lips, come at me from up above. Oh I need you. ~Colbie Caillat, Magic

5) I know you hate it when i say these things right in your face, but I can’t lie. It’s cause I know you know that I love you boy. ~Kjwan, One Look

6) I never loved nobody fully. ~Regina Spektor, Fidelity

7) I wanna fall asleep with you tonight. I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight. I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever. ~Meiko, Reasons To Love You

8) There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast, hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life. ~Chantal Kreviazuk, Feels Like Home

9) How didya' know that I'd be the one? Been a long time coming only just begun doing all the things that makes my heart sing. Keep doing what you're doing you sexy thing! ~Hot Chocolate, You Sexy Thing

10) There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard. No song that I could sing... love is the answer. ~Jack Johnson, Better When We're Together

11) All the sounds you make with every breath you take it's unlike anything when you're loving me. ~Saving Abel, Addicted

12) You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I’ll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds. ~Mayday Parade

13) Simple things are what my heart beats for, cause that’s me, I don’t ask for much. Baby having you is enough. ~Jojo, Baby It’s You

14) And I know that you’ll see someday that I cant live without you. And I know what I say is true cause im so stuck on you boy. ~NevershoutNever, Simple Enough

15) You're a true friend I can count on. When I'm blue you pull me up, you dust me off, you pull me through. ~Tilly And The Wall, Dust Me Off

16) I want you to know with everything I won’t let this go, these words are my heart and soul. I’ll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show and I won’t let go. ~Sum 41, With Me

17) I would not leave you, in times of trouble, we never could have come this far. I took the good times, I'll take the bad times, I'll take you just the way you are. ~Billy Joel, Just The Way You Are

18) I'll stop the world and melt with you. You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time. ~Nouvelle Vague, I Melt With You

19) When I'm weak I draw strength from you and when you're lost I know how to change your mood. And when I'm down you breathe life over me even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny. ~Zero 7, Destiny

20) Every little move you make sets my heart into a different pace, I would gladly dedicate every beat to you. ~Rico Blanco, Closer

21) There’s only one way to say those three words. That’s what I’ll do... I love you. ~Plain White T's, 1234

22) This heart, it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours. ~Paramore, My Heart

23) All this feels strange and untrue and I won't waste a minute without you. ~Snow Patrol, Open Your Eyes

24) I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do. You are my only, my only one.~Yellowcard, Only One

25) I finally found the love of a lifetime, a love to last my whole life through. I finally found the love of a lifetime forever in my heart, I finally found the love of a lifetime. Firehouse, Love Of A Lifetime

Love, with all my heart,

~tSin

The 25 WEIRD THINGS About Me

I was tagged to do this some months ago and so here it goes, some of the 25 weird things about me... plus 2 more actually! :)

25. Back in high school I was really sure I wouldn't reach the age 20 and I was sure I would die because my spine's going to be crashed or break or something. My dread for death at the time was really, really inexplicable.

24. When I am introduced to someone I spell their names in my head - not to remember them easily though... my mind just automatically spells it out for me.

23. I really want to go to Cuba! I don't know why most people find that as weird, but they do! So it's included in this list.

22. I don't and never leave my water container - be it glass, a refilled water bottle, canned juices that I can't finish up yet - in a fridge that isn't in our house... or know what? make that I NEVER LEAVE THOSE CONTAINERS ANYWHERE I have this crazy idea that if I do leave them there somebody might put poison or insect killer chemicals or anything at all that is deadly and consumable!

21. I am a big fan of music, but I cannot sleep with music on BUT I want to wake up with good music on! Confusing? Weird things bout me gani! Duh. Heheh...

20. Ok. that's another weird stuff bout me - I can get really and super duper confusing. And I don't usually notice that. I'm sorry if you have become a victim.

19. I am often conscious of my actions because I feel that somebody is always watching me. (Paranoia?)

18. Jingle and Tim are, I think, the only people who has ever noticed this - but both of them have told me that I make this weird noise every time I eat. Like a hissing sound (?) at the sides of my mouth.

17. I remember I wanted to be a Genetic Engineer back then so I can save people and give them longer lives. Haha!

16. I want to change the world, instead, I sleep. Seriously though, the first time I heard about the Ozone Layer thinning out I cried.

15. Hunger doesn't bother me most of the time. In fact, when I am hungry I can still think and give myself the option to either eat or not. According to our discussion in one of my classes in Psychology, when a person is hungry - one shouldn't think anymore if they should eat or not, if they do -- they are not normal.

14. I walk with my toes curled when it is raining or when the streets are wet - rubber shoes, sneakers sandals, or slippers on.

13. I believe in perfect crimes and perfect lies.

12. I believe that one person doesn't need to have/stick to one religion to show his/her belief in God. Whenever somebody asks me: "What is your religion?" I tell them: "I am an agnostic." And then the follow up question: "Serious? But I see you go to church and you are a member of your community's choir." My answer: "Yes, sometimes. I am not an atheist." They still think that I am an atheist. Whatever.

11. My future seems to be all fog and smoke everytime I try to picture it out... that should be weird.

10. I can't do things that I am told to do. And I can work well and perfectly at the last minute or whenever I am under pressure - and the pressure is from myself and myself only. Haha!

09. I used to not write if I'm not using a G-tech pen and I am just glad that I am soo over that habit already!

08. I can stop breathing sometimes and not notice it until I am literally gasping for breath already! Sometimes I wake up not breathing. Yeah, I know, super weird.

07. Coffee is not good for me. I don't really drink coffee until recently and it has been cut short and I'm never going to drink coffee again even with the following ingredients: 1 tsp Coffee, 3 tsps Coffee Mate/Cream, 5 tsps Sugar. Although I must admit coffee can really perk me up... bad thing is its "perking" powers to me makes my heart palpitate.

06. Another weird thing in addition to that... I can't feel my heartbeat. I had to see the doctor one time cuz of this... They told me that my heart is pretty normal despite the MVP syndrome (some heart churva I shouldn't worry about daw. Ok.). But one doctor said that the heartbeat sound is... WEIRD. *rolls eyes* He even said: "Pwede ko maminaw balik? Karon pa ko ani da!" (Can I hear it again? I've never heard anything like it before!) ME THINKING: Unsa diay, Doc?! (What the heck, doc?!)

05. Hyperacidity is a sickness that has been with me since I was a baby. But of course, pag baby nako wa pa ko kybaw na hyper diay to! Heheh..

04. When riding a jeepney, I would often opt to go to sleep cuz if I don't I would end up looking at every person who is in the same jeepney with me and create stories in my mind as to what they are thinking.

03. Yes, I am not a coffee lover, but I definitely LOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVEEE Starbucks! Don't ask me why.

02. I want to experience rain in Seattle.

01. I want the song by Air entitled Photograph and some Taking Back Sunday and U2 songs to be played on my funeral.

001. I don't believe that a person cannot do two things at the same time (as we were always told when we were kids), what should be right then? A person cannot FOCUS on two things/persons or whatever at the same time.

0001. I can read more than 2 books at the same time and not get lost. :p

how do you define normal anyway,

~tSin

My Natural HIGHS!

I should say that I am a naturally high, talkative, and active person. I could go through three straight days without a wink of sleep - seriously! I could talk for hours you'll fall asleep from listening to me! And when I start something... I wouldnt' stop until I get at least halfway through it. Well, that right there is like my weakness. I do have a hard time finishing things that I've begun working with/on so I would rather do everything at the time when I am most active and while I'm still surging with adrenaline for that one particular thing.

How do I keep up? I find inspiration. Yes, every now and then.

Here are the sources of my natural highs, my medications:

1) Tim. I don't even need to elaborate because just the sound of his name gets me to cloud nine and the sight of him keeps me awake even in my dreams! Hahah!

2) Books - any book at all that I find worth of my time and worth reading. Most of the time they do influence my way of writing.

3) My old journals from waay back! Even those grade school diaries that I maintained which talked mostly of boys. Gawd! How obsessed was I with boys before?! Geez!

4) Photographs! I consider them to be one of the best things that has ever been invented in the whole wide world! Also one reason I'm usually on Tumblr.

5) Facebook - just because I can see updates from my friends and even though I'm not with them or we seldom see each other well at least I know what's going on with them. Thanks to this sweet big thing called Technology.

6) Ashley. I just adore her so much cuz she's really cute and very brilliant indeed!

7) My sister, Angelica's "private" notes that I get to access from the home PC whenever she's not around! She always has this list of goals that I do not have and couldn't seem to make actually.

8) Online Window Shopping. I love the UrbanOutfitters' website in particular cuz they got some good music in there, too.

9) Then yes, there is MUSIC! Taking Back Sunday is on top of my list and next is U2 and you seriously wouldn't want me to list all of my favorite bands just yet, I'll make a separate entry of that in the future.

10) Ice cream! *drool*

11) Colorful pens and crayons. Which reminds me, I haven't seen a box of crayola for a while now.

12) Writing is like releasing endorphines.

13) Doing something new. That Edge Coaster stuff really got me going!

14) Joy rides and long drive homes sans traffic and pollution. I like taking in the scenery!

15) A rainy day with a good song playing in the radio plus the internet running fine and fast!

16) Waking up at 3am and finding a bag of Doritos in the fridge.

17) Partying/clubbing with my girls especially my bestest friend in the world Jing.

18) Right now, since I'm out of school, THE THOUGHT OF GOING BACK TO SCHOOL AND INTERACTING (or probably just staring) WITH MY TEACHER really excites me. I can't wait to walk the halls and the lobbies of the school again!

19) Riding on a plane.

20) I didn't want to admit this right here because most might not believe, but I do find talking to God inspiring.

21) Laughing, even at a corny joke. I really, really, really love laughing my mum couldn't stand it sometimes cuz she doesn't like the way my laugh sounds.

22) Mind provoking movies or TV series. Like Dexter or the Bourne Trilogy. ♥

23) Pretty girls and hot heels.

24) Fast cars, as in really fast cars! Say overspeeding?
25) A long drive home on a rainy day.
26) A cup of lychee-orange shake.
27) Starbucks, I am not a coffee lover but I am truly a big fan of Starbs!

28) Singing!!!

I could still list a million more! I'd probably be updating this blog once I find some other more things that are interesting. =)

I love the adrenaline rush,

~tSin